This has been a tough week for me emotionally. I found myself neglecting my personal care (not sleeping, not eating, not doing my hair) and my spiritual care (not doing my bible plans, not reading my devotionals or bible).
It’s easy to hold on to God when things are going okayish but in times of confusion I find myself in my own thoughts and emotions. Quite honestly that’s where the devil wants me. He knows that I’m an empath and I feel things intensely. When I’m happy I’m joyful but in times of sadness I almost feel depressed.
I caught up on my devotionals and I can’t say that they made me feel better ,but they did give me hope that there’s a purpose for everything that’s occurring.
In the past I’ve ran from my emotions and tried to cover them up with either another person or another thing. The results are those same emotions resurfacing at the worst times. I’m taking this time to handle every emotion and get to the root of why I feel it. Why am I angry ? Why do I feel neglected? Why do I feel lonely ? Why do I not feel important?
My idle mind has been telling me so many things. Some things are hard not to believe and some things I know aren’t true. It’s tough being in quarantine and not being able to go out and do the things that made me feel better. I miss simply taking my girls to a park or going shopping with them.
Being in solitude is hard. I would love to be comforted. For now, I’ll continue to wait and see how God will bring the glory out of this mess.